Sunday, February 11, 2007

Today's project: patience and repair.

Of course, the moment I say we're going to get in the yarden to plant roses, the weather went very cold on us for a few days ~ down in the 30s with rainshowers, no ice here though. Isn't that always the way? But that is good in the end. It makes you look for other things to tidy up, filling birdfeeders always, while the sun shines somewhere behind the clouds, waiting. Soon enough, it will be really hot and humid here. Too hot and humid if you ask me. I like the slightly cooler weather and occasional snows of Memphis, but the flowers and vegetation here in Mississippi can get Amazon-lush quickly because of the conditions. It's big and bold and beautiful when it comes on, especially the azalea bushes to come soon for spring. So, looking at it that way, the impending heat is easier to rationalize.

But for now, here I am: in the sewing room turned beadshop, with the gas heater burning low behind me. I'm repairing my dad's work of art that I pilfered from his workshop awnings. He made this windchime years ago out of some huge, spent caliber shells (obviously military) with a lead fishing line weight for the *dinger* in the center. The fishing line has rotted, and the coffee can lid he used as the windcatcher crumbled in my hands as I carefully lifted it down. In the pantry, I found this coffee can lid he had labeled, carefully, as a thorough research chemist would tend to do. And I love that it's his handwriting, so it's perfect.

The main structure it all hangs upon was carefully twisted from heavy gauge wire that is now mostly rust and weathered bits of corrosion. But to me, it's beautiful. I'm keeping it as long as it holds up because he made it with his own hands, and it reminds me of him and his spirit, still lingering in the winds around me. I look up at the blue sky and see the color of his eyes. It makes me cry every time I think of him, but I smile at the same time ~ honored to know such a good man who touched so many people's lives in such a giving, laughing way. I thank God and the heavens for my knowing him, and know I will see his sky blue eyes again and hold his hand one day.

It's what I not only believe, but I know because I've seen it. I promise it exists, if that helps you to know that. And so, patience. Patience is so hard. To me, that is the word for the day for about 64 days in a row now. But while you are waiting for whatever it is you are wanting or needing, don't forget to spread around some seeds of goodness. That's one of the reasons we're all here to begin with, I think. Reaping what you sow. And building peace and patience, with your own hands. And with patience, everything grows. Platelets, roses, and all things good.

~ Make a warm, sunny day with your own hands. ~

2 comments:

bushra said...

aw, hugs! i'm missin' the dad right now because he's gone off gallivanting around pakistan on his own, but that doesn't compare to how much you must miss your dad. yes, be sure to keep as many of the original elements of the wind chime as you can!

me said...

Oh no, I can't miss my dad -- I swear, he's always around, still crackin' jokes in my head for me. That man really leaves a mark. How long is your dad going to be galivantin' in Pakistan? That sounds like fun to me, I hope you don't have to miss 'im too long...